I would just like to start with a clean slate and have enough to cover my living expenses for a year. I do not think you are alone in the feelings you have expressed in this piece. I know it resonates with me. I would like to leave you with a quote that I think you would like;

“The promises of this world are, for the most part, vain phantoms; and to confide in one’s self, and become something of worth and value is the best and safest course.” ~ Michelangelo.